the nice time spent..

to my dearest darling..

thanx for making the effort to come over to Ipoh..

spending almost 2 days with me..

im sorry that i couldnt take a 'MC' for u..

to leave u alone in the room for almost 6hours really broke my heart..

im really really so sorry biby..

i just hope u had a great time with me..

coz i certainly treasure every moment spent with u..

the day when u were supposed to arrive..

my heart was skipping skipping..

every seconds waiting for u..

was such a dreadful moment..

but when u arrived..

i was so happy and glad..

all the moments of waiting just vanished..

and all i had in mind was..

how we will be spending our time together..

i am sorry that i didnt include u in most of the choices of eating places..

i just pick which ever i like and brought u there..

my first choice of movenpeak BBQ steamboat..

was becoz we both love this kinda meal..

im sorry that the meal didnt turn out to be so great

but just hope u enjoyed my company..

with all the grilled oil splashing on us..

the second day..

we had tosai and chicken curry..

it was supoerb..

how i miss that delicacy..

but i guess it was so much more nicer..

when i was having it with u :)

i really like the idea of not planning..

coz our plan of getting myself a new glass just wont work.. :)

but we had a really fun time watching the movie..

laughing out stresses out, feeding each other with popcorns and hugging one another...

i guess our best moments was when we had our so-called late lunch..

the almost two hours spent in 'josephine' was simply marvelous..

every second spent there remained vividly in my memory..

the nice setting.. nice food.. with slow songs..

it just made everything perfect..

o..how could i forget the best ever drink u had..hehe

even though it seems posh..

but it is kinda worth it all..

i seriously hope we will have the opportunity to be there again..

supper at paparich..

even though its just simple nasi lemak for u and curry koay teow for me..

the food seems tasty no matter where we ate..

was it coz we have each other as companion..?

im seriously sorry that we had shorter time on the third day..

we didnt get to have breakfast together coz i was rushing for work..

im sorry for leaving u alone eating all those choc bread, cookies..

but u werent angry at me..

which made me guilty even more..

the lunch we had in movenpeak was just so so..

was it caused we ordered the wrong thing..

or..both of us just felt the ache in our hearts..?

nevertheless the pudding was nice..

and spending the quiet afternoon with u..

with u right beside me..

was more than what i could ask for..

the last few hours..

the dinner at old town..

im truly sorry for shedding tears when ur about to go back..

i didnt mean it..

i seriously dont know why i have reacted in such a way..

i really dont know what got into me..

but it was really something i thought i can just hide..

i guess i was wrong..

at least u now know how i am feeling..

biby...

i dont know when we will have that special time again..

but each time we part..

our feelings are stronger as the day passes by..

just hope the day when i have that guts to open up..

telling everything to my family..

as hinting to them dont work..hmmm

Praying hard to GOD everyday to be guided through..

may HE continue giving us the strength to go through this hurdle..

love u darling...

one year ago

looking through the photos and post by the current grads of the 4th batch of UMS..

the memories just flow back..

the happiness..the sigh of relieved..

we had indeed struggled through the years to be where or who we are now..

i could still remember vividly the time spent in uni..

the happy events..the tough events..the not so nice events..

all of that had indeed made life more colourful and challenging..

it is through past experiences that we improve ourselves to be better..

i cant help but smile when i saw the post by Prof Shahril..

" nasihat untuk doktor doktor muda (4th batch UMS 2011):

i.hormatilah guru kamu sampai bila bila

ii. kamu tidak akan mati jika bekerja kuat

iii. jangan terlalu berkira dalam soal kerja

iv. rawatlah pesakit kamu seperti mana kamu mahukan rawatan terbaik untuk ahli keluarga kamu sendiri.

v. hormati orang lain seperti kamu mahu orang lain meghormati kamu.

vi. kehidupan di dunia ini pendek sahaja; buat banyak kawan bukan lawan."

(prof..how come NO nasihat for us last time ??? :)

it is true that we should awalys cherish ALL who have guided us through along the way..

not only our lecturers, but also those patients who have been our 'indirect' teachers in a way..

i learnt a lot from patients from last time till now..

u wouldnt know that being nice and tolerant..

u will gain trust from them and the history changes TREMENDOUSLY..

from a small complaint, they will actually open up to tell u further histories..

which actually lead u to the actual diagnosis..

After working for almost 9 months..

everyday is still a learning experience..

u learn from everyone..

the most important is to know what u want in life..

a doctor used to tell us..

no matter how bz ur work is..make sure u learn a new thing everyday..

be humble to everyone..

medicine is about TEAM work..

always be humble to those around you..

u CERTAINLY wouldnt survive if ur an ego-maniac..

thinking that u could handle things all alone..

i dont deny that my 'facial skin thickness' has increased all these months..

but yet i wasnt upset about being scolded..

im more disappointed when i fail to perform my best..

it is always true that u wont die working harder..

but u will die if u have nothing to do..haha...

with so many HOs around..

there arent supposed to be many things to be done..

but yet..at times..many things were left undone..

that is why a good teamwork matters in this environment..

by treating patients as ur own family is certainly a good advise..

coz that is how u wan ur family members to be treated as well..

i could still remember vividly how many patients didnt mind waiting for me to tk their blood or to set lines..

and they thank u after that..but on the other hand i feel bad for poking them every morning..aiks..

the most important thing i learn throughout my working time is..

the importance of communication with patients..

and explaining to them what u are doing..and what u plan to do..

many think that it doesnt really matter..

but to them it means a lot..

it is a true comment from most of the patients that i have taken care of..

and i guess u wouldnt know how news travel among patients..

patients have their own gossips corner as well.. :)

they will only allow u to join in if u are close to them..

i can feel the excitement in my juniors..

those were the feelings i had a year ago..

going into a new chapter in life..

yet..many things have changed throughout the year as well..

am not sure if im losing my passion..haha.. (prof will certainly knock my head)

the DR title comes together with the word RESPONSIBILITY..

dont ever take ur work lightly..

working life is DEFINITELY different from student life..

seeing death almost every day in acute cubicles..

i learnt so much of the meaning of life as well..

all the best to the 4th batch of UMS..

enjoy your holidays to the max before working life starts.. :)