my dearest darling..
many things happened in this month..
all this have seriously brought me down..
i didnt expect all of these to happened..
u wouldnt know how my world just came crashing down..
i wish u dont have to go through this bad patch with me..
u dont know how it hurt me to hear u cry..
u dont know how painful it is to see u in such a bad state..
yet u keep on supporting me and would go through all the worse scenarios
for me..
biby..it really hurt me..hurt me so bad..
im so sorry for hurting u many times
im sorry for disappointing u many times
im sorry for letting u down so many times..
i dont mean all of these to happen..
but i guess no matter how many times i have explained..
i guess it hav hurt you more than anything..
im grateful for the trip u made the other day..
it shows how much i mean to u..
it shows how much u love me..
it shows how much u care for me..
im really sorry that instead of fulfilling ur wish..
i disappoint u all over again..
u wouldnt know how much it hurt me to hurt u..
u wouldnt know how much i didnt wana argue with u..
i rather keep quiet and let u say all u want..
i rather keep the pain all in me..
wat happened..
made me think..
do i deserve a special guy like u..?
do i deserve a understanding and loving guy like u..?
do i even deserve your care and love?
you would do anything for me..
you would sacrifice so much for me..
but wat have i done for u??
nothing...
i know i dont need others besides you..
i know i cant love others beside you.
i know i cant live life without you..
yet i dont know if u know that..
