IT has been more than a year....

it has been more than a year... yet the event remains vivid in my memory... no matter how much i tried to forget about it.. the memories just flow back without invitation... up to this date.. i still have tears flowing down.. the wound inside of me.. was never closed.. yet i could still feel every itch of pain.. it has been around 4 months since he last talk to me.. thou he sent me a msg last month asking me about a medical condition.. seeing me only as a doctor... while i had to go through the pain of seeing his engagement photo.. i didnt know y.. y i had believed in him.. y i had believed in his words.. y i had trusted him whole heartedly... only to know.. only to be sarcasticaly shamed at.. only to be humiliated.. what i am going through is something u will NEVER know... i have enclosed myself up coz of u.. i have forgot what happy / happiness means coz of u.. i have learn not to trust..believe.. hope..coz of u.. i have fake all my smiles coz of u.. i have pretended to be strong coz of u.. yet.. all u rmbr was me hurting u.. coz u NEVER REALISED.. how MUCH MORE U HAVE HURT ME after that... how i have begged just to see u.. how i stayed up late just to get things done for u.. only to be said back that.. u didnt ask me to do it.. i will never forget how much u have hurt me on my birthday.. and i pray..u dont know and wont have to go through this struggle i am going through... thank you for taking out the best in me...something no one else will ever feel it anymore...