Tears are words the heart can't express

it hurt me so bad..

to being accused by someone i love so dearly..

of things i didnt mean to do..

it wasnt meant to shame that person to the whole world..

it was just a small joke...

but that person took it OVERLY seriously

and throw the blame rite back to me..

hit me rite on the face..

thinking back..

since when what ever i said was meant well...??

everything i said was wrong..

everything i said was brainless..

everything i said was insensitive..

jokes i made was bad remarks..

jokes i made was shameful..

jokes i made was nuisance..

rite...i should just keep my damn bloody mouth shut...

and tied my hands so that they dont type...

i should have realised that things have changed..

things between us have drifted apart since 8 years ago..

i wasnt appreaciated anymore..

i wasnt cared about anymore..

i wasnt bothered anymore..

what ever i did was unimportant..

events that bring smiles to me..

was brushed off easily..

memories that bring smiles to me..

was laughed at..

the future that i hope to achieve..

was also laughed at..

its ok if u look down on me..

it will only encourage me to strive harder..

its ok if u think im a nuisance..

its ok if u always think that i meant to shame u..

coz in my heart..i NEVER hav any intention to do so..

its ok if u just wan to treat me this way..

coz i know its time to wake up..

its time for me to leave the path..

the path that we both went thru closely..

only that now..ur in a different stage of life..

while im struggling thru ALL ALONE here...