even though it was barely 2 hours,the short coffee session was more than enough,for me to realise how naive i was,or was it how pathetic i was,to keep the hope alive,a hope that was long gone,and would not ever happen again..
i missed my chances 6 years ago,and never will i have it back ever again,it seems easier to say than done,but i guess thats something i have to endure,whether i like it or not...the stabbing pain will forever be feltthe haunting memories will always be present..and the embarassment of every meeting will be swallowed though its so hard...
its time for me to build up my strength,im sorry for giving u the negative impression,i have my own reasons that u dont know,and i just dont have the heart to tell u about it..u have ur own worries..u have ur own goals..it seems that we have drifted very far apart,and im not sure if there is still the string to pull us back..i hope there is, even though the more u speak,the more i felt i am talking to a different person..its good that u have changed for the better..u have ur life, ur goals, ur determination..i guess i could only watch from far..like wat i have been doing all these while..to pray silently for ur well beings..and always hoping the best for u..thank you for still remembering me..as frens we will forever be...and please never give me any hope ever again...its more than enough..please...its torturing...
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