its painful..

i dont know why are my tears flowing down even more..
from rain drops to stream like water fall..
and the ache in my heart..
just wont stop aching..
yet i know..
i deserve all of it..
i hav no one to blame but myself..
only myself to go through this..
i wil continue praying for u...

used to look forward to new year..
coz it was supposed to be our anniversary..
but now..i dreaded the dates..
i dreaded most of the things..
and silently praying to GOD to just take me with him..
its painful..really really painful...