relationship???

6th august 2009- it the third week of my medical senior
posting(MSP)..was i lazy or im just tired or im just afraid of
the endemic??? i feel so weird to be back bit early today, but
i will definitely be more hardworking when there are days
when i have to stay back for classes or teachings.
neway, a few things happened this few weeks. the worst was
the outbreak i had on a fren who was actually having some
relationship problem. i guess i was just stress up with so many
things in my head, which include my own personal problems.
probably the wrong thing was told to me at the wrong time. he
was shock by the way i responded. it was so unlike me to
actually fired back someone for their actions. maybe he was
right after all, i dont have the rights to even say anything
about relationship thingy when i dont even have one. if so, why
ask me or talk to me about it in the first place..he's not the
first thou...haih...nevertheless, managed to patch things up with
him last nite as he knew i didnt mean to hurt him in anyway,
just that i was REALY stressed up the other day. he even
mentioned the email i sent to him was true enough, but will
wait and see how his so unpredictable and losing end
relationship will go...

so..relationship?? wat is it all about? is it just another frenship
but just add a bit more of love and care??? was it just about
being euphoric and happy all the time??? or was it just
another phase of life before marriage??? many have opinions
on relationship.. i have my own, and probably because of that i
am still single until GOD knows when.. am i ready to open up?
the answer i myself wasnt sure..to me, relationship isnt just a
bout being with someone. its about being committed in a
relationship which may need sacrifices at times. how much we
love someone, isnt just by the famous '3 words'. some ppl are
particular when their loved ones NEVER said those words to
them, but is it that important when the truth is they say just
because u like it, or is it more important when they TRULY say
it from the bottom of their heart???

i have heard so much about putting the blame on others when
the relationship turns sour.. i guess before blaming it on
others, one should just stare at the mirror and ask
themselves, have they done enough in that relationship, or
what they are doing is right?it isnt just about being there for
someone, its about understanding wat each other is going
through, be there for them, support them and see them
through those tough moments. yeah, a close fren can do the
same, but being a partner, u ought to do more coz u may be
the person ur partner trust the most after all..so, why pushing
the person away when u initiated the relationship in the first
place? if u dont wan someone to be too close to u, then dont
even think of being in a relationship, being close frens or
maybe just normal frens will do..i simply HATE ppl who just
take relationships for granted. and feel even worse when
someone ended the relationship then tried to be pityful,
sorrow and pretended as if the other person was in the
wrong..HELLO..wake up please.. stop all the nuisance and move
on. if u dont understand what 'LOVE' really mean, dont even
dare say it...

i kinda lost my poetry skills..or probably i dont have the
inspiration to properly sit down and type it out..just give me
some time and im sure i will be able to produce one...till then...