courage...

I din know how come i had tat courage.. To tell him i wanted/insisted for him to hav d knee pad i get for him.. I also din now wat made me to hav tat courage.. To b able to meet him n pass d package... But when i see his face...his eyes .. Tears just came down all over again.. I had to leave at d moment.. I din wan him to see me cry... But he took d effort to find me wif his bike ..no..not his bike..someone elses bike.. Found me wif tears.. The 10-15mins session was more like him seeing me crying... I darent even look into his eyes... I duno y it was painful all over.. Im thankful when he gave me tat hug..his final hug to me i suppose.. But tears were streaming even more.. I dont know if i can stil talk to him thou he said i can.. Im stil lost wif everything.. But wat im sure is.. My decision to stay alone n not open up wil remain.. Coz no one can replace him in my life.. This sacrifice for him wil b worth it..i hope it wil...