weird feelings

I wasnt sure if it was a dream... But i rmbr i wasnt able to sleep.. But y is it there are some weird feeling tat im feeling.. Yet i dunno wat is causing it... I dont think there are anything left tat i din tell him.. But i know it was plain stupidity of me to open up again..when i shudnt.. But there isnt anymore else to lose...since i have lost everything... Im tired in a way..really really tired.. Wif the many days of crying...d heartache.. d pain.. Only to realise he was giving me tat ' i dont care a shit' attitude... Thou he said he cares...but it means nothing when i dont feel it..