upset...

sigh... y is it tat memories of us just flow back each time i see his eyes... i didnt know why i was emotional all over.... had a difficult time to sleep ystrday too... kp thinking of navins mother... dunno y it hurts me more when i kp thinking of her... felt so guilty...regretted i din spend more time wif her but went to clinic...sigh i dunno when im gonna b emotionally stable...feels like i wont... feeling upset...really really upset... i really really dunno wats wif me... im just so very very tired.... but wat i have really wanted so badly is ... for him to hug me tightly for a long long time...telling me i wil b alrite...n let me just sleep in his embrace like last time... something which wil never happen anymore... n i deserve it... i wish i can hav a peaceful sleep... something i never had..for a long time...