endless tears...

I duuno y..but tears are just streaming down as if theres no tomorrow... I dont know how im going to pull throughi know is...i cant msg him anymore.. he musnt know how much im hurt..he musnt know how devastated i am.. he musnt know im already ruined...now my tummy starts rejecting my food intake...nex wil be my eyes wif the constant tears..optometrist has warned me i can go blind..yet i cant stop d tears..wif my heart aching so much more.. i wish i hav tat stength to ruin the inner core tat kept my heart pumping or sedatives tat wil just shut my brain off.. i wish i can do it soon...